"With arms wide open"

That was the next slow song and thankfully Joey came and danced with me. I thought it was the most un-dance-able song! but I needed to clear my thoughts for a little bit. Joey had the ability to make me laugh all the time, so the 3 minutes went by fast. After that we kept talking, somehow we ended up on the second floor of the Mall and we watched everyone dance.

After we came down I could sense something was not right with David, I thought he looked upset, I thought maybe he was acting a little dry. I just went and kept talking to Joey because I was pretty sure that he was just letting me know my boundaries, that he was just being extra nice by inviting me over but nothing more than that.

Needless to say, the rest of the night was kind of dull. We came home very late and I could not sleep, I kept thinking of his troubled face, of his eyes, his coldness, his eyes, his embraced and then his indifference. It hurt but it was good to know where "we" were.

We just kept hanging out every day, and as the days went by I couldn't help but notice how all his free time was pretty much spent with me. I also made sure he was on top of my list when activities were made with other friends.

The ELC (where I learned English) had an activity every Thursday and on one of those we all went to Orem to roller blade. I invited David and even though I was a pro at in-line skating way back in Venezuela, and did tricks and what no, when the time came and I tried to stand by him I FELL!!!! ******Okay Belky I know this guy is cute, and you like his smile, and he's so smart and yadda yadda, but COME ON!! GET A GRIP!!****

He offered his helped and his hand burned mine, **I kind of like burning** I was up and ready to bring my reputation back up when I fell again **you gotta be kidding me!! ahhhh!!!**
Without any self esteem left I asked him to hold my hand for a little while until I get a grip or find a corner where I could hide for ever and ever.

Pretty soon we were having so much fun and decided to start a little dance. All this time he has been holding my hand.........until .....I guess he got bored :-( and asked me to let him go for a little while.
There I was, all lonely and going slower than a 2 year old going down a slide.... when all the sudden...
....."AH!!!" *******are those really his hands?... around my waist?.....Belk, are you breathing? DON'T! suck it in girl, tuck that tummy and any organ you got in there IN! ...........oh no... don't start falling........oh dear... he's smiling..... ****

*****Melting, disintegrating, dreaming...****

The Dance

The movie was finally over and when the lights came out I felt naked. They were all looking at us, trying to figure out what had happened during the movie. I am sure that for David or any of them it was nothing, but for me... a little something inside of me was invading me, like a decease that spreads through your body... like venom, that is exactly the way his touch felt.

I was so glad they were all very thoughtful and let me sit on the front seat. I didn't need to be close to him. They were all talking about the movie, likes, dislikes and what no. Me? ... I was just trying to recreate the feeling of his touch and the mesmerizing smile he had while he tried to "scared" me, I knew it wouldn't happen again and yet, I wanted to remember.

Until I finally got my act together and realized the stupidity of it all. I am sure now that he was just trying to make it fun for me, I mean, he probably thought "poor girl can't even understand the movie" now I feel ridiculous for having felt the way I did. ** deep breath** All is good, now let's try and understand SOMETHING of what they are saying!

We go and pick up Andy's girlfriend and her friend. I have to say that they were both very cute and nice, but that girl, well I just don't think she and Andy fit together, no that I know Andy that well anyway, but she just didn't feel right. Anyway, the other one was smiling a bit too much to David, it bothered me for a second and then I decided to talk to Joey, he was the funnest!

We all go to a Mall in which they are having a dance. A WHAT?!! I replied. How is it that I was told to wear casual clothes when we are going to a Dance?!! Oh my brother!! I was so embarrassed! until we walked in and everyone looked as casual.

Americans, they do things really funny sometimes.

To dance they go, some disco music is being played and they all go and do some weird moves. It looks like they are fishing, shoveling dirt, and more. I have to say I was a little relieved that no one knew me, I guess any feeling for David had disappeared, he can NOT dance! and what he can do he shouldn't do in public.

Then, a slow song came and everyone moved away, some with a partners came to the middle of the room and embraced each other and swayed with the music. My first thought.. BORING!! until I see that grin... the killer grin!!!! and I think he is looking at me, I want to turn around and check but I don't want to look stupid, but then he reaches for my hands and invites me to "dance" with him. I can't think, I just walk to him and put my hands.... What?! I have to touch him? ohh ohh wait a minute, the missionary is putting his hand on my back! and the other one is touching my other hand!!! Again, I don't want to look stupid, so I do the same and we sway back and forth, make really small talk and I completely avoid his eyes....

Way to go on not looking stupid! but then things changed a bit.

The Mummy returns...or you could call it our first date ;-)

Thursday night David called me and asked me if I would like to go with him and his friends to see The Mummy, to which I replied..."sure, that sounds fun" but inside I was going...
...wow!!!!!!!! WOOOWHOOOO!!! AMAZING!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT, I WILL ACTUALLY GO TO A MOVIE PREMIERE!!!!!!
But to him, I played it cool!

Friday came and I cleaned the apt, did my homework and got ready. I had to call David because I noticed not many people dressed up in this town and I wanted to know what to wear. The first thing that boy says is, don't wear high heels! He then told me that we were going to a Mexican restaurant before the movie, then to the movie and then to a mall. So I put on some cute jeans a cute little shirt and .... well the only thing besides heels I had were a pair of running shoes, so that is what I wore.

"The boys" came to get me, Joey and Andy. These two guys were David's best friends and they both served Spanish speaking missions so it was nice to be able to talk to them too. We picked David up and then went to get one more guy.

We went to the Mayan super cool pace, they have a little cliff in there and there are divers that jump every so often during dinner time. Click on the link to see pictures. Anyway while we were there David and his friends decided that I should practice my English and order food for everyone. That's when I thought...
...Yes, he is cute; yes, he is fun; yes, he is making me day dream for the past few days BUT why is he so mean??!! Doesn't he understand that the least thing that I want to do is to embarrass myself in front of him and his friends!!
But then, he asked me again with those green eyes, with that little grin on his face and I melted once more...........
... and I don't think that lady understood what I said so I pointed at the items on the menu. I don't think he was impressed! :-(
That day I tasted for the first time in my life "sour cream" it wasn't bad, but why would it anyone eat "plain Doritos" with that white cream? Only very white boys! that's who.

Then we headed to the theater. Somehow the seats they found were 3 in a row and 2 on the row above, not only that but they made David and I sit on the top row, very very next to each other..............***MELTING***
I kept telling myself, "breathe Belky" 'Not too hard!!" "Stop moving you might touch his arm!!" "Try to pay attention to the movie!!" "Wait, do you understand what they are saying ? because I don't!" "Why are you so worry about where his arm is, just watch the movie!!".................then......
.....AHH!! he poked me!! he touched me, he poked me!! my waist!! then he looked at me and had that killer grin on again. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH WHY??!!!

He was trying to scare me in a very scary part of the movie, I would had have the right reaction if I were paying attention to the silly movie I SO wanted to see. He did the same a couple of times and I started smiling and looking into his green eyes when he looked at tme. Just digging my grave deeper as I realize how much I like his grin and his company. I just knew it wasn't the same for him, because we are too different and at the end we could never be anything. Just then I realized that actually hurt.

With that I finished watching my movie and actually understanding a little more of what it was about.
But the date wasn't over yet...